I see no way around it. I’m sacking my current gender therapist. He’s broken my trust and frankly I don’t think I even want him to try and repair it.
What’s worse, I don’t feel I can trust anyone at the gender clinic where he works anymore. I know this is irrational, but it feels like he’s contaminated the entire team with his unprofessional behavior. Call me paranoid if you must, but rational went right out of the window there.
I spent five months trying to convince a prejudiced fool that my gender dysphoria is genuine and now I have to start all over again. That sucks, but I’m not gonna let this get me down. I’ve been scouring the internet for other options and found out there’s still a lot I can do.
The good news is, a friendly therapist offered to write my T-letter. So that’s that taken care of. However, I’m not entirely sure that will get me on T here. It all depends on whether or not the health professionals here are willing to accept a letter from an overseas therapist. I keep my fingers crossed. And my toes too.
There’s one other gender clinic in my country, but I cannot go there unless I move north, which is not gonna happen. I cannot live there. The terrain in the northern provinces really depresses me, so that’s not an option.
Having said that, there’s two psychological practices in my country that work with transgenders and from what I read so far, I think I prefer their approach over the approach of the gender clinics. If only I’d known about these practices a year ago. I might have been on T already.
Then there’s the possibility of my own GP prescribing T. This is not how it’s usually done here, but it is a possibility. If my GP is so inclined. With my T-letter I might well be able to convince her to do this. I’ll be seeing her tomorrow, so we’ll see how it goes.
This is really my preferred option. I’m sick and tired of waiting. I want my voice to deepen, I want facial hair, I want my body to look more masculine. And I can’t wait for it to happen. I hate when people call me ma’am.
Now, if my GP won’t cooperate, there’s a real possibility to order T from an online pharmacy abroad, after an online consult with a medical doctor abroad. There’s nothing illegal about that. I am free to obtain my medical care from abroad if I choose so. But if I go this route, my medical insurance won’t cover the costs, and I’m not exactly wealthy, so I’d have to really start pinching pennies then.
As a last resort, I could also just order T from any odd webshop dealing in steroids, but that’s risky business. And probably not entirely legal either, so I’d really rather not have to do that.